Little Pieces

And so...

The high lights and low lights of February's contribution to the painting: Wonderful birthday full of laughs and yummy treats and Anthropologie.  And, a virus for Valentine's Day that attacked both me and my honey and knocked us out.  He was worse off than me, for sure.  Which serves him right for giving it to me in the first place!  What was he thinking?!  

;) wink

Maybe I will regain the energy to write a longer entry tomorrow.  For now, I will just share my delirious scribbles that landed on my bedside paper.  

I called it Little Pieces because I don't have the brain energy to be more clever than that.

Little pieces may fall

Upon me when I see the sky

Why fall freely in the twist of fate

And turn of time

I may come to you

I may stay behind

Either or is which way

I claim to be mine

Come see the pieces

Come see them fall

I collect and mash them up

And I throw them against the wall

Break and shatter, let me see

The pieces rise to fall

It seems that this is my destiny

My rhythm and rhyme of a dead end song 

Believe me, I'm not rolling out of bed in despair.  I'm not boo-hooing in the sack.  It's just what came out this time.  I'm actually quite cheerful, although full of fatigue, and am looking forward to a night full of sweet dreams complete with fluffy white sheep and twinkling stars that grant all of my wishes true.  

No.

You aren't ever supposed to outgrow those dreams. (I know that's what you were thinking.)

Night. Night. 

Another Mix Fffor You

I either dreamed sitting up in bed, looking at my phone and saying Fffriday, Fffebruary Fffourth, hmm?  Or I did that and fffreaked Nick out.  I'm sure the expression on my face was one of "What does it all mean?"  Things are different in la la land.  They seem more important and more dramatic.  Poor Nick. He married a weirdo.

Another Music Mix.  Check it out.   

1. Supermassive Black Hole, Muse- Black Holes and Revelations
Black patent stiletto boots, check.  Mini skirt, check.  Whip... umm, don't have that on file.  I will just bitch-slap the first person I see and that will have to do.  Hopefully they will see my earbuds and realize I'm just in character.  Frisky little tune, this one. 

2. No You Girls , Franz Ferdinand- Tonight: Franz Ferdinand

This song makes me think of guys wearing skinny jeans, but that can be looked over due to it being super fly, yo!  This one is a get-ready song.  Get dressed, get your hair did, put on your red lipstick, throw a scarf 'round yo neck... prance out the door.

3. Who Is It (7" Edit), Michael Jackson- King Of Pop

Awesome.  I love the snapping/spoons beat going on here.  And it features the tremendous "Hee, hee" in that high-pitched-only-Michael-Jackson-can-do-this fashion. 

4. Feelin' Love, Paula Cole- This Fire

Watch out... don't make out with yourself!  

5. Everybody Here Wants You , Jeff Buckley- Sketches for My Sweetheart The Drunk

"Why did you die?" Ugh.  That's what I think lots of times when admiring his talent.  I wish this guy had lived on for a long, long time.  This song is evidently about a super hott (don't forget the second 't') lady.  I can't tell, are they together or not?  I have different versions of his p.o.v. one day to the next.  Most times I believe he sings to a stranger he has locked eyes with across a room.   

I am posting lyrics... check this out.  Awesome. Even better when you hear his voice and the music.

Twenty-nine pearls in your kiss, a singing smile,
Coffee smell and lilac skin, your flame in me.
Twenty-nine pearls in your kiss, a singing smile,
Coffee smell and lilac skin, your flame in me.
I'm only here for this moment.

I know everybody here wants you.
I know everybody here thinks he needs you.
I'll be waiting right here just to show you
How our love will blow it all away.

Such a thing of wonder in this crowd,
I'm a stranger in this town, you're free with me.
And our eyes locked in downcast love, I sit here proud,
Even now you're undressed in your dreams with me.
I'm only here for this moment.

I know everybody here wants you.
I know everybody here thinks he needs you.
I'll be waiting right here just to show you
How our love will blow it all away.

I know the tears we cried have dried on yesterday
The sea of fools has parted for us
There's nothing in our way, my love

Don't you see, don't you see?
You're just the torch to put the flame
to all our guilt and shame,
And I'll rise like an ember in your name.
I know, I know,

I know everybody here wants you.
I know everybody here thinks he needs you.
I'll be waiting right here just to show you
Let me show that love can rise, rise just like
embers.

(While "I know everybody here wants you." Repeats)
Love can taste like the wine of the ages, baby.
And I know they all look so good from a distance,
But I tell you I'm the one.
I know everybody here will thinks he needs you,
thinks he needs you
And I'll be waiting right here just to show you.

6. Dream Brother (Nag Champa Mix), Jeff Buckley- Grace (Legacy Edition) 

J.B. Repeat.  Burn the Nag Champa. (I always do anyway.)  I even bring my weaved basket out that looks exactly like a Cobra basket sans poisonous fanged reptile. 

Kidding, not really, but it just occurred to me that props could be fun. 

7. Sister Contine, Rusted Root- 20th Century Masters, The Millennium Collection: The Best of Rusted Root (Remastered)

This song and Blue Diamonds have been at the top of our Most Played rankings on our itunes for years & years & years.  That sums it up.

8. Closer [Presets Remix], Kings of Leon-  Come Around Sundown [Deluxe Version]

You will be cool by default as this song plays. I'm into remixes such as this one. There have been a few listed.

9. They Don't Care About Us, Michael Jackson- King Of Pop

Probably true.  

10. I Turn My Camera On, Spoon

The funny thing is, I was playing these songs as I was writing this entry.  I stopped to get my camera to take a shot of China upside down in her basket, belly up, looking precious.  So, I did in fact turn my camera ON when they said "I turn my camera on."  Ha!  

11. You'll Find a Way (Switch and Sinden Remix), Santigold- Santigold

Apres Diem in Atlanta.  Green tea and broccoli soup with my friend Arin.  This song comes on.  We stop mid conversation.  Ask the waitress, "What is this playing?"  We leave, go look for the cd at Borders off Ponce, give money to a homeless lad, and then carry on with our evening.  It is that powerful of a song.

12. Paper Planes, M.I.A.- Kala  She was born in London to a Sri Lankan political activist family.  She moved back there with them when very young.  She saw a lot and says a lot of interesting things.  There is much more to her than the music.  I don't know everything about her, but she seems legit from her own experiences.
13. Exo-Politics, Muse- Black Holes and Revelations

Another great Muse tune.  Kinda spooky. 

14. Misery, Maroon 5- Hands All Over

Oh yeh.

15. Crept And We Came, Bone Thugs-N-Harmony- E. 1999 Eternal

Ha!! Didn't see that one coming did you?  (Takes you back, doesn't it?)

I bet you can't even see their mouths moving.

16. Russian Roulette, Rihanna- Rated R

I think I cried in my car the first time I heard this song. Cheesy. I know. But, I did. I was like "Oh, no, Rihanna!" I really love a lot of her songs.

17. Hey Mama, Black Eyed Peas- Elephunk

If you remember the video it makes it better.  They have a few examples of the aforementioned "ass-only" dance from yesterday's post. And one girl does that with inverted arms... go figure!  This group seems to never make a wrong turn.  My friend Arin took me to their opening concert in Atlanta before I moved to Edenton.  It was awesome.  Fergie is incredible.  And the name will.i.am... the best one out there.

18. Any Other Day, Wyclef Jean- Carnival, Vol. II: Memoirs of an Immigrant

Norah Jones is beautiful, no?  She is superb.  This song, I'm sure you know, but it is a must-have in your music library.

19. Video (Main), India.Arie- Acoustic Soul

We all need to hear this.  She says it the best I've heard it said.

20. Canned Heat, Jamiroquai- High Times - Singles 1992-2006

Nick loves Jamiroquai.  I need to get him a disco ball and roller skates for this song.  Supposedly, he can speed skate.  Don't tell him I told you. ;)  This boogie is for real!

I found it again!

I really wished "I did it again!" would have worked as a title considering I've just mentioned Britney Spears in a public post today and the previous post is named "oops".  It would have made this whole bit of madness seem intentional on a more Universal level... but it just didn't work.  Close enough, though.
Good news!  Guess what.  Yes.  I found my missing blog post.
Ooah! Ooah!  I just raised the roof!
Turns out my wishes get granted these days quicker than over night, yes sir'ee!
What happens when a not-completely-computer-techno-literate gal like me lands in a heap of techno-trouble?  She tries to be IT genius... but it doesn't work.  Then, she pouts a little bit because it doesn't.  She scurries like a mad scientist from room to room, huffing and puffing and mumbling.  She forget to eat dinner in the midst of her worry.  When she remembers she forgot to eat dinner, she heads to the fridge to eat cheese and strawberries and calls her mom and dad to complain about how she messed up and it sucks.
Then, she remembers, "Oh, you know, I'm really a lot more positive than this.  I will find it."  She sighs and sucks on her strawberry as she twiddles her hair and looks up and around as if the answer exists in her eyebrows.  Then, drum roll...... she gets it. She starts to use her own resources and NOT try and morph into an IT wizard.
My resources?  Husband, sister, mother, father.
Yes.  That close to home.  That is where my answer rests.

I said to myself, "Sister gets my entries as soon as I post them.  She told me once that she doesn't even click on my blog, she reads them as they are sent... as a full article.  Husband gets them too!"
Then, I snatched his blackberry up like a ninja and scrolled, and there she was- the sweetest sight to my previously sad little eyes.  My entire entry as originally sent.  Meaning, there were words on the page!
I am taking a deep breath and releasing.  Feels so good.  Mission Accomplished.
I found it at 11:02.  That's no coincidence, friends.  That's my sign.  That is an angel's way of saying, "See, when you relax and let us in, we give you the answers you seek."
After I copied and pasted and emailed and forwarded and all of the above over and over, I ran upstairs and gave Nick the biggest smashed-up lip kiss a sleeping man has ever gotten.  He was pretty cute about it.  He has no clue what he did that was so great, but claims it.  His eyes were fuzzy, but I think he got my point.  I am very happy that his phone gave me my magic.  He gets credit.
This is why I never, ever give up.  Even if I say I am going to bed, I keep trying.  I might be trying with a different strategy, a more relaxed natural method, but I'm still convinced I will find what I'm looking for... and I did.  Lesson reiterated.  There is ALWAYS an answer.  Change where you look.
I'm going to repost the post.  Check back for it.
smiles here.